When Self-Sufficiency Isn’t Enough

Finding Jesus or perhaps being found by Him feels like coming home after trying every road.

Every path that promised peace.
Every practice that promised healing.
Every method that promised clarity.

And still, something felt unfinished.

Until I stopped wandering…
and came home.

For years, I lived in the world of self-help: energy healing, plant medicine, yoga, astrology, crystals, sound healing…

You see what I’m doing here.

The list goes on — and honestly, just typing it is exhausting. It doesn’t even cover half of it.

So many practices.
So many modalities.
So many things to try in hopes they might help us feel okay.

But when you become consumed with “self-help,” it can quietly become the very thing it centers on: the self.

And the truth is — we cannot fully trust ourselves to determine everything that is good for us.

One of the best lines I’ve ever heard is:

“You can’t untie a knot from the inside.”

Only something outside of it can loosen what’s bound.

I am deeply grateful that God covered me through the years. I have faced hardship and challenge like anyone walking this earth but I was never rescued from something so catastrophic that it was obvious I needed saving.

Sometimes salvation is easy to see:
a life restored after addiction,
a person lifted from homelessness,
a body healed from severe illness.

But many of us today live in a quieter illusion one made possible by unlimited access to knowledge, resources and personal empowerment.

We believe that if we have enough money, enough validation, enough approval…

then we are okay.

“I’ve got this. I can do this.”

This is one of the great struggles of the modern age: the illusion of self-sufficiency.

Let me be clear:

I am not here to preach.
Jesus is not asking you to perform.
He is not waiting for you to get everything right.

He wants a relationship with you.

He wants you to recognize that He is here.
That He loves you.
That He cares for you.
That He wants to help you.

Right now.
In this very moment.

We are not talking about doing the “right” things.

We are simply saying:

Jesus is here.
And if you want to know Him — just ask.

In the past, I related to Jesus as “Christ consciousness.” I saw Him as a teacher and a prophet whose wisdom I could draw from.

But I did not fully understand Him.

Only recently have I begun to grasp the depth of who He is — and even now, I am still learning.

There are no hidden codes to decode to reach God.
No special substances required.
No secret pathway reserved for the initiated.

It is far simpler than that.

It is right here.
Always available.

A conversation with God.

And when you finally come home, the striving quiets.
The searching softens.
The exhaustion lifts.

You are no longer wandering.

You are home.

If you feel yourself in this place — curious, weary from striving, or longing for clarity and peace — I am opening a limited number of Faith & Clarity Sessions.

These sessions offer a gentle space to pause, reflect, and reconnect with truth, purpose, and the presence of God in your life.

They are now available for $150 (a $50 savings).

You don’t need to have it all figured out.
You don’t need the right words.
Just come as you are.

He is here for you now.

As Jesus reminds us:

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart,
and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
— Matthew 11:28–30

Love & Prayers,

Alexa